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I will be predictable and ask for BABY FIRST IMPRESSIONS? For either one of mine...

Haha, Eureka is wary of Rena. She does not make a point of hiding how ruthless she can be, but Rena is one of the few who acknowledges it in Eureka without any note of approval. It is a strange place to be in . . . Still, she does not mind talking to her, and she is good with having someone to have exchanges with for games, though she is not after much more.

As far as Killua and Zen go . . . Well, Zen is making it hard between them because he is a brat! He does not mind Killua at all and finds him interesting in his own way, though he hasn't dropped his guard, so to speak, with Killua enough to do anything more than goofing off. It is very wait and see to see how the two of them will fall in with each other, but Zen can go any way with him right now.

I am easy, and I will ask for reverse!

Rena on Eureka... There's definitely distance there, since Rena can detect the wariness, more or less—and, well, Rena isn't really very trusting herself to begin with, either. She doesn't hold anything against Eureka, though! Rena thinks she seems very logical and some of the ways she sees things are quite interesting. Hilariously enough, Rena actually has zero problems with ruthlessness when it comes to protecting important things, and even idealizes it a little.

Killua on Zen is pretty simple: he's pretty fun to poke fun at! As such, his brat levels are set on maximum, but he doesn't dislike Zen or anything, and he seems interesting enough to talk to. Definitely still in wait-and-see stage, but leaning on the amused side of positive.

So how is Zen handling his everyone-from-your-home-is-in-love-with-you crisis...

Hahaha, well . . . Zen is trying to take it at his own speed! He realizes that Shirayuki and Obi feel very deeply for him, but he also has a conflict in that he is not the same person that they admire without his memories. That is, he doesn't know how much their feelings is based on the past and how much is based on simply having a natural attraction to each other. There's also the fact that Zen may not return those feelings right now, though he is definitely charmed by Shirayuki already . . .

So, yeah, he is trying to strike a balance between figuring himself out as well as being sensitive to the fact that the situation is delicate with the two of them. Still, he hit a point with Obi where he was going to trust that they would know what to do in the absence of his knowing. If they were close before, then they would have an idea how to approach him, even if he may not be exactly the same, right? He can't change the feelings that they have, but he can find his own answer . . . And that is more or less it.

Let it be said, that despite being very cool and level-headed about how he approaches it, he is still a mess about it. He absolutely blushes like mad, smushes his face in pillows, randomly yells for no apparent reason, and so on. W-WHAT THE HELL HIS LIFE . . . !!!

So, Rena on Peridot?

She loves Peridot a lot. It's funny, I was actually thinking a little about her feelings on team, and they actually fall a little in line with her feelings about Hinamizawa, the village she comes from, but on a smaller scale. It's a very tight-knit community, where everyone bands together and stands up for any other villager whenever something happens... While she of course is closer to some members of the team than others, she really likes that sense of unity, and she appreciates how welcoming everyone on the team has been to her from the start. Peridot as a concept is pretty important to her already, and she definitely puts them as her priority above everything else.

Has anyone explained trauma games to Zen? How do you expect him to handle those?

If someone did, they did not get deeply into the subject . . . Still, he picked up context clues from when he arrived about that all is not well within games and Aather. It is more like something hiding in a dark corner right now, because Zen is not going to ask others about that and bringing up that pain for others. He will take it as it comes like he has been doing so far.

Depending on the format of the game, he will do well or poorly. He may break down privately, share the pain with others, refuse the system, or lose spirit . . . There is a lot that could happen, not to mention he does react heavily to how those around him are behaving. I could definitely see Zen not reacting immediately or even within the day of a trauma game if he does not lose his shit within the first hour of the game.

Alright, talk to me about Killua. I truly know nothing of his canon.

THAT I CAN DO. killua god i love killua

Killua was born into a family of assassins, and he was raised to be the eventual successor to the family business. That meant being trained to kill since he was pretty much still a toddler, undergoing rigorous torture every day as part of his training, and never being allowed to have any friends. Eventually Killua gets fed up with not being allowed to make any decisions about his life for himself, and runs away from home. After he runs off, he decides to kill some time participating in the Hunter Exam—a really difficult exam that allows people to become "Hunters," who are licensed, elite people capable of hunting down treasures, people, and various other things—and there he ends up meeting the main character, Gon, and the rest of the main cast.

Killua quickly hits it off with Gon, who's the same age as him, and in regular situations tends to come off as a normal, bratty kid. But thanks to his upbringing, his moral compass is pretty... nonexistent at first, and he really has no qualms about resorting to murder or blackmail to quickly solve problems. However, when Killua gets attached to someone, he gets really attached, and the influence of the friends around him gradually inspires him to work towards "clean living."

Killua's defining trait above all else is really his loyalty towards those he loves—sometimes even to an arguably unhealthy extent. While he doesn't want to follow his family's plans for him, he really doesn't have much of a direction in life for himself, so he sort of has a tendency to latch onto people (like Gon, and later on, his little sister Alluka) and devote himself entirely to them...

What is Eureka planning to do when she gets all her memories back?

Relationship for Zen and Itachi?

I don't think anything has changed very much since I babbled on plurk about the two of them. Zen is still in the process of finding his footing and space within the team, but he has the best idea of where he is with Itachi than anyone else. What a good team mom . . .

So, how far did discussions about having a leader go in the post? What does/would Itachi think of being asked to assume that position?

I can be predictable and ask for relationships all around right??? ALTERNATIVELY maybe songcalls or something!!

Um, I do not have any for Eureka that I can recall off the top of my head! There is a sunshine mix that I associate most strongly with her which has gems like Beth Orton's I Wish I Never Saw the Sunshine and others. It is happier, but that is the song that I remembered, shh . . .

For Zen, I'm On Top of the World by Imagine Dragons is the number one song I associate with him. Morgan Page's Addicted, Outasight's Now or Never, and Rascal Flatt's Life is a Highway are also in there. I have a few mixes on 8tracks that include I'm On Top of the World which are all generally on point, but those are the ones that stick out to me.

So, Apple on Zen! :3c

I love I'm On Top of the World.........hilariously relevant is that I am pretty sure the week Zen got in they started playing it on the radio all the time so I am just constantly listening to it.

Uhhhm gosh, she is in a strange mix of horrified and comfortable in his general direction. Horrified because she never expected him to ever end up in Aather! Aather is not a good or happy place for her right now so loved ones ending up there is bad. If she is honest with herself it is a little bit of a blow to her self-confidence; she could at least convince herself that she was protecting everyone in Clarines from having to deal with personae and darkness before, except oops now that point is moot because the person she wanted to protect most is here. In general she will fret over him ending up in bad games and getting hurt or getting back memories of Clarines and being sad/lonely without his aides or his people. BUT in the end none of that is something either of them could control and she knows that. She does not have the energy to exert to be worried all of the time, so she is just not going to worry until something worrisome happens.

Aside from that and her initial little panic she is extremely comfortable around him! She needs to constantly check herself to make sure that she isn't too comfortable because she doesn't want to weird him out. Withhh a lot of people she will stress in little ways over what to say and how to act and how to make sure they understand her or getting ready to defend her actions, but she doesn't feel like it's something she has to worry about with him. Amnesia is hard and she still has a lot of gaps so she is taking the opportunity to get to know him again. All she's had for 200+ days is memories of him, but while she can use them for reference she is mostly just taking him as he is and rolling with it. So far he's been level-headed and a little funny and nice to be around. He has a personality that makes him very easy to interact with for her and it helps her de-stress in little ways. NOT EVEN GOING TO TOUCH THE DOKI DOKI FEELINGS she is solidly hitting the ignore button until someone else brings it up. I would say she is deliberately trying to give him space, but it is more accidental because she is just going about her days as usual and working under the assumption that Obi is stalking Zen everywhere.

I am sorry for the wall of text...REVERSE?

Man, with Shirayuki, I did not expect Zen to immediately become enamored of her, especially with the rough and awkard start, but . . . !! Honestly, there are two sides of the relationship right now. On one hand, he enjoys her company and truly likes her. They can talk and spend time with each other easily once Zen stops thinking of how strange the situation between really is. It is just as if they were two people who met by chance, and he can't help liking her in that sense.

On the other hand, when he is aware of the situation, Zen is highly uncomfortable with it. She was by no means subtle about her feelings for him, and he feels like he could easily make a wrong step and hurt her a lot without meaning to. It makes him very wary of relaxing around her which makes him more likely to make that wrong step which makes him warier—It's a bad cycle! He does not know how to approach that, because he can see that she is very uptight about even discussing the issue. So, he ends up fretting on his own or in his mind a lot over it . . . It is very stressful for him, but the moments where he does relax are some of the best that he has, so it is very win-lose.

Strangely, Zen does not want to talk about the situation with anyone. Somehow, he is very much aligning himself to be independent, not stepping up to depend on others yet. So, he doesn't have any outside source to help him figure out what to do, since he is running circles on his own. He can't ask Obi, because he is in the same situation with him! And his team doesn't need to know! It is very something right now, cry.

So, what is the details on Obi and Shirayuki as of late?

Hmm, I do not think there are any! She called it off with him a little while back and after being half awkward about it for half of a conversation she is treating him like normal. Sheee knows that Obi is in love with her and Zen, so that is kind of sitting in the back of her mind :|a And she is not quite sure how to handle it so she is thinking on it a bit and keeping an eye on Obi and waiting for him to mention it or a way for her to bring it up. If she leaves it alone she is sure he would never mention it, but she wants to at least talk to him about it! At the same time she is so...easy and comfortable with him and she doesn't think that will change no matter what the conversation is, so she is fine with letting it lie while they both make faces at each other over Zen.

That was only from Shirayuki's PoV because you will have to poke superbro for the other half.

mini sotu for Eureka? How is she doing...

:3c

Outside of and, perhaps, including his team, Robin is the person that Zen feels most comfortable with. They can banter and goof off with each other which is an excellent contrast to the pressure that he feels with others when he senses, or creates, expectations of himself. The heavier topics haven't come up between them, but if Zen truly needed to talk to someone to figure himself or a situation out, then he would definitely test Robin out for that. Overall, they definitely need to play off each other more to develop more solid footing in the relationship for Zen.

Reverse!

Zen impressions on Van? (though they've had like, one chat...)

Uh, he is wary in Van's direction because he is on the same team as Shirayuki. He got a strange run around from Yuki which makes him unsure in the general direction of his castmates teams . . . Along with, you know, them knowing more about these people than he remembers at all? Other than that, there wasn't anything that I can recall immediately.

So, what does Van know of Zen? And what does Van think after meeting him?

Y-Yuki...

So far Van only really knows the basics; that Zen is a foreign prince who took Shirayuki in and Shirayuki possibly has a sort of tiiiiiny crush on him. Maybe. Though he does know that he saved her from being kidnapped before once because it was one of the few intense Zen memories that Shirayuki took with him...Which meant he had kind of high standards of his expectation of Zen and was surprised when an amnesiac version of him was somehow not as grand and heroic as he imagined after immediately dropping into the Ring and essentially knowing nothing. For some strange, unfathomable reason.

Though he's still interested in getting to know him, if only because he's The Most Important Person to one of his own Important People.

How's Zen adjusting to Aather?

I am not wasting my grand heroics on someone who can't appreciate them, Van—!!

Hm, he is doing well . . . More than most of my characters, I think Zen will take awhile to figure out where he fits and what he wants to do. A week or so in, he is still working out growing pains with his team, figuring out the situation with castmates, and so on. He is very much someone who takes things at his own pace, because he has a good sense of himself in that way. I could ramble about a million different specific instances, but there are a lot of times when Zen seems as if he has an issue settled to me but then it is not that way at all. Overall, he is very wary of Aather, because he came in at such a delicate time, so he is hyper-focused on not upseting the balance or situation wherever he is. For someone who had no qualms with causing trouble in his youth, Zen is trying his very best to be a non-entity which is very interesting.

So, I guess, well in the sense that he isn't imploding or anything like that, but he still has a lot of adjustment to go. Lots and lots and lots of adjustment . . .

How's Sophie doing in Aather?

Any relationship updates? :D

Oh, man, I was not neglecting you, but it is hard to do an update when they have a thread going on now, especially since it was them talking . . . A-And I cannot remember what I have written before!

Mmm, without Akashi, Eureka leans heavily on Lambda now. She does not have many people that she feels an ease and comfort with like she does with Lambda. Even without that factor, Lambda is truly special to Eureka, because they share such a different perspective from the rest of humanity in Aather. Like I said, she understands that he comes from a different place than her; the current thread is showing that clearly to her than any conversation she has had with Nirvash, because Lambda is willing and able to explain himself, to give clues, to Eureka. The differences between them doesn't worry her, though. She hopes that he will continue to be patient with her as she learns like everyone else has been . . .

Okay, reverse. So, I can jump off some more of your points.