▪ I have a free will, I should be listened to, I can understand as much as everyone else . . . Because I've been talking with Amethyst, I have these, even when I didn't want them.
▪ If I talk to Amethyst, then they won't hurt as much, though. Talking can solve every problem.
▪ But if I don't talk, then I'll lose what I stand for and who I am. I can lose them.
▪ Humans are full of contradictions.
▪ Jill is dead. She has died . . .
▪ She shouldn't have.
▪ Jill wants to protect everyone else. She wants something difficult.
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Day 287
▪ They only wanted to protect others.
▪ Don't worry, don't worry . . . When they worry all the time, when they cause trouble.
▪ I'm sorry—It's an empty phrase. It is saying instead of doing.
▪ Amethyst is wrong. They don't make sense, and they are wrong. I know they are, I know that they aren't reasonable. I feel that. I can feel it.
▪ Eclipse didn't want help. He was upset, he didn't want to see me.
▪ Haruki left Amethyst, but he didn't say why . . . I wonder what he was going to do.
▪ Amethyst doesn't want me to protect it, either. I shouldn't worry. (Someone should protect Amethyst.)
▪ Amethyst won't judge people based on justice.
▪ I have a free will, I should be listened to, I can understand as much as everyone else . . . Because I've been talking with Amethyst, I have these, even when I didn't want them.
▪ If I talk to Amethyst, then they won't hurt as much, though. Talking can solve every problem.
▪ But if I don't talk, then I'll lose what I stand for and who I am. I can lose them.
▪ Humans are full of contradictions.
▪ Jill is dead. She has died . . .
▪ She shouldn't have.
▪ Jill wants to protect everyone else. She wants something difficult.
▪ She said that I lied about Nirvash, because the game said that I did. She doesn't believe me, she doesn't trust me . . .
▪ But we're going to help each other to understand.
▪ I don't want to be who I am if that person is troublesome. I won't worry, I won't disagree.